Tori Amos ruined my life.


....I suppose that's an unfair judgement against her. it wasn't her fault that she's so fucking powerful that she makes normal life turn into a raging turd. but that's what she did. At some point in the 2+ hours that she played, some of the carbon monoxide that she was expelling from her lungs, undoubtedly made it's way into my own airstream. meaning that for however a brief miniscule moment or fragment it may have been, a part of her is inside me. physically.
this doesn't even take into account how she's changed my life countless times over. without any sort of knowledge of these happening, I can only imagine that she obviously never intended to have such a profound effect on anyone. let alone me.
but she did.
I've avoided talking about the concert. avoided writing this post for a week. because nothing I'm going to say is going to accurately explain to you, my fine readers, how fucking sad I feel. sad because it didn't go on for 10 hours. or 16. or 108. when all I really want for the rest of my life is to hear her sing winter. over and over and over again.
a part of that wish will come true though. since somewhere between my choking back tears and the actual factual fucking reality that I was ACTUALLY fucking seeing her play that song live, I managed to record it.
the video quality is total shit. but the sound is pretty fucking amazing for being from my phone.
I'm avoiding uploading the video. because I don't want to share that moment I had with anyone in a public way. because it's my moment. it my heart stopping. it's my choked throat. MINE.
but I guess I will share. since you all were nice enough to get this far....

further down you'll also find Father Lucifer, Taxi Ride, Take To The Sky and her second encore which includes Precious Things AND Big Wheel.