Pants Vs. The Waking World

so this is the week where I make a half ass'd attempt to actually ween myself off my sleeping pills.
I'm fairly honest about what medications I take, and for what, because I see no need to really downplay, or even upplay my current disorders. so let me give you the details - I take zolpidem (10mg) and trazadone (150mg) daily/nightly in order to get a full 8 hours of sleep.
I typically only take them on the days that I'm having a really hard time falling asleep. as someone who has suffered from chronic insomnia pretty much my entire life, that usually means I take them daily.
zolpidem is extremely habit forming, and has some majorly fucked up side effects. I used to take it's sisterauntmothercousin zopiclone, but had to change because I built up too much of an immunity to it, and it leaves this rotting taste in your mouth like hot wet broccoli. which was not exactly pleasant, as you can imagine.

anyways. in talking with my dr over the last few weeks we both came to the conclusion that I need to cease taking the zolpidem as soon as possible. since I was waking up in weird situations.
like in my car.
or that one time I woke up in the kitchen. with my phone dialed into a fax line that I had literally held up to my ear. I don't know what the fuck that was about, or why sleeping me thought it would be fun to just listen to a fax line buzz for however long. sleep me is kind of an asshole.
anyways. it's a common side effect, so I don't get to take them anymore.
which really puts me in a pickle. because the only things I love more than my sleeping pills are my parents. so giving them up isn't something I'm really prepared to fully do. (the pills. not my parents)
buuut I have to. the good news is I get to stay on the trazadone because the only side effect it has, apart from keeping me asleep for longer than 8 seconds, is that it bakes brownies and shaves my armpits for me. so really, how could anyone give that up?

I've resorted to a half dose of the good stuff. which so far is doing nothing in the way of putting me to sleep.
On the plus side, my armpits have never looked better and these brownies are DELICIOUS.

what. I had to get my capslock fix in somehow!

thought of the day - zzzzzzzzzzzzz

what to expect tomorrow - a rousing tale regarding the economy, personal responsibly and your credit report. I'm just too lazy to type it out now.

WORD.

ps. I fixed the formatting so Crystal, you shouldn't have any more issues with viewing this on your phone :D