Pants Vs. is the universe trying to tell me something?

SO.

on the health front -

the C word isn't ruled out.
I met with a surgeon last monday who wants to do the biopsy based off CT scan results. so I go in for the CT on wednesday. the lump is still there. it will be 6 weeks on wednesday. I am starting to feel 'better' in the sense that I can physically get up in the morning now, without nearly falling asleep at the wheel. I'm still near constantly dizzy and I can legit feel my spleen protruding from my side. it's a weird feeling. all my organs are enlarged. by all I really mean my liver spleen and kidneys. this could be a multitude of things of course. but they assume mostly related to the mono.
I just want a dr to sit me down and say you don't have cancer Pants. that would just be nice.
I'm passed the point of really being worried about it. I'm sure the biopsy will reinstall that panic. but for now I'm just annoyed at the medical system.

in other news, I got into a car accident today. a minor fender bender in hind sight. but it just adds to the stress of everything. I'm feeling justifiably overwhelmed.

but tomorrow is a new day. and I've got the best people in my corner who make life amazing just by breathing and I love them for that.

so cross your toes kids. I could use some good news.