A colonoscopy?! That's the opposite of Christmas.

Sometimes I have to stop and catch my breath because the world and my life are moving so quickly. I'm so lucky. I can't say it enough - I am so so so lucky.
I'm in love. For the first time in my life, I'm in love. With her, with my job, with my life. The entirety of everything. The last two years of my life since moving back to Edmonton have been so much about focus and growing and changing and learning how to love again. I feel like all that hard work, all that sacrifice and soul searching, all the people I got rid of and all the negativity they brought with them, all the bullshit and self sabotage, it all brought me here. To you, to this, to us. I'm so lucky that I survived. That I made the choice to survive.
I can't say it enough. I'm so lucky.