my current mood ranges from contemplative, to tired. there's a few steps there in between those two, but mostly it's tired. yea, mostly it's tired.
the hardest part about getting used to sleeping next to someone, is getting used to not sleeping next to them. you wake up randomly and expect there to be breathing on your back, feet being kept warm between legs, or a hand nestled in there somewhere. but instead it's just silence. the back and forth, it'll take some getting used to. as does everything. but I live for those moments when it is hands, and feet and breath just everywhere.
So politics eh? Redford resigned (for my ontario fans, Redford is was the premier of albeta.) the first female one to boot. it's too bad she was a raging cunt bag who just wasted resources, made no apology for her selfish cunt bag ways and eventually was forced to quit because everyone wants her head on a pike.
I've gotten only slightly more political in my "old age" I still care very little for what comes out of their mouths, and tend to base my opinions more around the actions they take. but I've been thinking in a much broader sense of things since I started dating someone who is a member of the military. it's a whole other walk of life that I had previously never considered, when considering my ideas on politics. the good thing about perspective - is that it can ALWAYS change. as can priorities, as can opinions. I doubt my opinion of harper will ever change, but my level of understanding of his actions - that's something I am looking at from a broader view. because the person I care about is directly affected.
in the short scheme of things, however, not much is going to change by way of political leadership here in alberta. maybe we'll get an oil pipeline. maybe we wont. maybe we'll have international trade agreements move quicker, maybe we wont. these things do not affect me on a daily basis. so my level of involvement in regards to redford saying goodbye is very limited. I just think it's funny that she quit. what a coward. At least Rob Ford refused to admit defeat.
So my cat eh? She goes in for her follow up blood work next week. just to confirm that her meds are at the right dose. I have a feeling they are not. because despite the fact that she is no longer puking and has put on weight, she is much less active and much more vocal, and her vocalness seems to be that of either pain or discomfort, or she's just a bit of a jerk who can't hear herself meow, therefore she must do it at the highest decibel imaginable.
but all in all I believe she is improving. her kidney function will also get tested, as kidney failure is often masked by hyperthyroidism. she was in early stages when all this went down (which means 2-3 years of good quality of life) but being that she is 20, they figured another year max. if her kidney failure is worse than we originally thought, then that life span may be reduced. these are things I do not like to think about. but being in denial doesn't help me, or her. her quality of life is the only thing that matters to me. that she is happy and not in pain is all that matters. so as long as she has that, then we're both in good shape.
So work eh? we're gearing up for the busiest summer we've ever had. things are already starting to pick up quite a bit. which is good. I will take all the over time I can get.
this summer is going to be pretty G.D amazing. geocaching and mountain biking, camping and hiking. I get to spend tons of time with my besties and the pups, and then show my lady all the beautiful things Alberta has to offer. I can't wait.
with that said..I read somewhere we're supposed to get snow tomorrow. this is one instance where I think denial is totally ok.

Also, can we talk a minute about the Pretty Little Liar finale!?!??! because seriously, if Ezra is dead I'm going to shit. also A is Def a dude. and Def NOT CeCe (as she was detained at the time of the attack)
plus ok, how the fuck did Spencer NOT immedietly demand Ezra tell them who A was if he knew?? AND FURTHERMORE - why the fuck did Hannah not shoot him! COME ON!!!
ugh.
I just want Paige back. ugggh.



in other news. this is my current musical obsession.